Hard nutty cheese. Musky red wine. Candles drip on the lapis blue cloth on a table by the sea. A black cat sits on my lap and I let it.
It is just you and me and the cat. It’s dark. The candles flicker in the warm breeze. Our music is the roar of the waves as they crash against the wall by the sea. I am perhaps most in love with you in this moment. Our hearts suspended together. Breathing in peace, an ocean away from home.
Home. Where bills need to be paid and alarms are set. Where the light over the kitchen table dims our dreams. Where expectations and household maintenance avert our gaze away from each other and the content of our hearts.
What I didn’t know then was how hard it would be to be with you again like that—with hard cheese and a bottle of wine. We tried. Romantic restaurants in other towns. But a black cat never sat on my lap again. And you never want any wine. And the cheese just stinks.